Surgical Loss - My Ovary and Menopause like symptoms

Where do I start... In the recent year I've felt quite blessed to have the loving and nurturing connection of women transitioning through peri menopause and menopausal states. It gives me grace to my "new body", my "new requirements" and to just simply sit, feel and be seen. Over my years of teaching spiritual development, prescribing Homeopathy for menopause, and inner child coaching, I've walked alongside many women during their transition phases. The Goddess knows we all go through it at some stage. But I wasn't expecting to "go through similar" at such a young age. (Pretty sure that was a funny joke I made with spirit for calling my business Hagio Crone Health for the first 6 years huh?) 2 years ago began my massive transformation

With a misdiagnosed 7cm cyst, 3 cervix procedures, a big bleed out (30-40 percent of my blood), a transfusion reaction..* takes a breath. *2 organs removed in the single sitting (ovary and gallbladder), then 2 adrenal crashes from taking the contraceptive pill. P.S I named my left ovary Belinda - since she's the only one left and "I believe in er'" In a "desperate need" for some respite I decided to take the contraception. For a moment of relief.. just a tiny break was all I needed after what I had gone through. After all that physical trauma a breather was all I needed.... How wrong I would turn out to be.

Two weeks after I started the contraception I found it hard to breathe. I couldn't walk very far at all, my adrenals were overloading and the medical system "couldn't tell me why." Being a Homeopath it's my nature to investigate. I researched the whole time I was ill - looking at cause/effect and all the mishaps happening - how and why. I realised quickly that it was the pill, but I didn't confirm or stop it until almost a year later. Contraceptions affect multi organs -suppresses androgens -has correlation to more sensitive brain chemistry, making emotional regulation more difficult and higher anxiety -increases cortisol activity due to suppressed androgens.

It wasn't until my Testosterone levels were severely low from the pill that I pulled every blood test together and confirmed the pill was causing my adrenal problems. The journey has been long, and oh so exhausting... Here I am - 31 years young and I know my life may never look the same. But I appreciate the experiential learning. However large its affect has been on my life.

My symptoms I only take homeopathic prescriptions now to ease the symptoms, and find myself no longer waking up 4 days before my period with massive, *weird*, hormonal panic attacks at 6am. Finally, I am sleeping through now. Before my cycle I feel all my energy is sucked out of my body, like somebody has plugged me in but there is no juice coming out at all. During this time I may be laying down for 3-4 days (which is absolutely fine, given how much I was bed ridden in those 2 years.) Finding solace in this journey has predominanlty been when I connect with women who are transitioning. I'm very grateful to not only have that understanding and compassion reflected to me, but also to now understand the other side. For years I taught, knowing that menopause and hormonal changes can seriously affect the third eye and its clarity. The brain chemistry and mood disturbances can be incredibly rocky for the mind. Now I've grasped it and understand it to a T. Having my hormones chopped in half overnight had affected me in so many more ways than I could imagine. And after todays beautiful connection, the statement rings in my mind "I didn't quite realise how my femininity would be affected." When this new connection had her surgically induced menopause start... It has been 5 months solid now for me since the last adrenal crash and stopping that ghastly pill. Life still looks different and I cannot mentally function the same way all the time. Though, as the time goes on my brain/body are slowly adapting to the change.

Homeopathy, herbs and rest are a woman's best friend.

But I tell you what, be careful what you wish for. There I was, 10 years ago asking spirit to give me semi retirement early... now there's a joke right? It is what I asked for... and hey... I wasn't quite sure what I was getting into. But at least somebody's laughing right? But here I am, adapting, changing, easing in my road. Things still bump, jumble and scatter about near my moon time. Yet, blessings and solace arrive. I have found a love in taking care of me during these times. I take a rest on the ten days before my cycle-simply to allow the waters to do as they please. To let the adrenals recoup and my body take it's time. At last I find myself laughing, the burden has released and I find beauty in the women around me in their up/down world as they transition through to cronehood. "Release the fight" it only makes it harder. With love and light... Eve.